It’s been a battle of the two wolves since gum surgery 10 days ago.
Having concluded the previous block in high spirits with confidence at an all time high, telling my girlfriend I truly believe I have what it takes to achieve next years challenge. It’s since flipped on its head.
Full of doubt, questioning myself, letting the negative whispers get louder. Allowing thoughts to manifest into stories. It’s been a difficult 10-days. Granted it almost feels embarrassing even saying this given the real adversity and hardships people are facing around the world.
I spoke to dad about it and he reminded me of the two wolves fable.
My alter ego The Smilinggg Man lays dormant when I’m not running. This enforced rest coupled with a compromised and rather sore mouth this close to the challenge throws my belief into doubt. So it has been good to have dads wise reminders and Annabel’s supportive shoulder to lean on as I try and not throw away everything I’ve been working towards by making any rash decisions.
The gum stitches come out on Tuesday and I hope to get a few quality runs in over the next couple of weeks just to reawaken the smilinggg man, start feeding the good wolf and remind myself of who I truly can be as opposed to giving into the lesser of the two wolves.
If you’ve read the wolf fable before then I hope this serves as a refresher, if you haven’t, then I hope it helps you in some capacity.
Steps 👣 + Smiles 🤗
Keep #Smilinggg 💛